Family

So lately that has been the theme in my prayers at night. I have one of the most incredible families ever made. Coming from a family of 6, two older brothers and one younger sister, I feel like my childhood was perfect. There was always more than enough. Love and light surrounded us even till this day. My parents are still married after 40 years and that was from a blind date... Through a brother in and out of rehab and a mother that battles a chronic illness, another brother married right out of high school and a beautiful sister who found her light by diving into the darkness... i'd say we are amazing. And really prayer and the Bahai Faith is what we had to navigate through this life. What else could of assisted us in learning how to have consultation? how to pray for each other? how to guard against the trials of this world? To this day I am a whole hearted believer in this Faith and I strongly encourage you to find the truth for yourself. www.bahai.org
My dream, hope, wish and innermost desire is to have a family one day like the one I know. This crazy life and this crazy music business will only consume a tiny part of me from now on. The things that are most important and of the highest station, is family.
I LOVE MY LIFE!!!

TE

its coming...

hmmmmm Heart strings... they have been pushed and pulled at this month. I dont know if its because its my birthday (again) or if the moon is sending some crazy"your gonna feel every little thing down to your core" energy beams out. At any rate I know that there is always room for growth and awareness.  I can only learn through experiences and through taking myself into account each day.  At some point in life you start to ask the friends around you for reality, and hopefully they can mirror your true self. But when that is not enough, I go to nature. Something magical happens there, my thoughts are clear and organized. My shoulders relax and I become instantly connected to God. Suddenly the stack of bills on the kitchen counter(why are they always in the kitchen??) aren't so urgent. The constant runnin around for something that is meaningful is all around you, bathing you in its gifts and glory. I've been craving nature for some time now, it's coming and when its here I will be renewed.

Remembering is so sweet...

The past several years have been full of adventure and growth. So much has happened in my life that could of broken me, but I didn't let it. So much that could of distracted me from my purpose, but I didn't let it in. Such amazing miracles and an abundance of love have showered upon me, I'm so grateful this day. Grateful for my health, the roof over me and my son's heads, the food in our kitchen, my plants that are green and growing, my car that gets me where I need to be, the handful of friends that understand me and SEE me, this amazing weather that nurtures my happiness, the little things in life that make me laugh out loud, and the incredible power and strength that God has in my every breath.
This town will chew you up and spit you out and most people never recover from it. I've seen it time and time again, even had a few good chewing ups myself. But when I was cast out all tattered and worn I picked myself up, dusted off and tried again. Hopefully not getting chewed up the same way as before. I pray everyday for strength and courage to swim up stream, be who I am no matter what the environment, irrepressible. (my fav word) Its all about remembering who you are, why you were made by God and what is your divine blueprint. Remembering your fav color and food, or clothes, what you like to read or where you like to sit in a park, what speaks to your soul and how loud it is, what your drawn to, what your good at. I've always known that music and my songs are a medicine for some, and really for myself. Whatever I was doing before had ran its course, the slate has been cleaned off and I have gone back to what I KNOW. Remembering what I do and who I am deep down and bringing it to the surface. Its an amazing feeling, to remember. With all that, I was listening to a record I did a few years ago, and
fell in love with myself all over again... I'm picking up from there, so stay tuned for the new goodies, and until then check it out http://music.taraellismusic.com/album/proper-lady


I LOVE MY LIFE!!!
TE

Dreams are real

The other night I had a very powerful dream. It was full of information and symbolism. My father came to me and showed me two mountain tops, it was pitch black and all I could see where the stars. He pointed to the first mountain top to our right, there was a white owl and another kind of white furry animal. Then he pointed to the mountain top to our left, there was a bald eagle, a buffalo and a native american man dancing around. It was so incredible that I quickly ran to a place where I could write it all down because I knew I was dreaming and I knew I had to remember all of these signs. Anyway when I woke up I wrote about it some more and looked up some of the meanings on dreammoods.com one of my fav sights for dream interpretation. Thankful today for my insight through the dream world...

TE 

just inspired, this first one is tattooed on my left arm...

ahhhhhh Mexico...

  So I've just returned from an amazing voyage across the sea. Yes, thats right, Mexico coastline and more. This huge cruise ship was like a mall on water, or like Vegas on ski's lol. It had everything you could imagine and more!! Pools, work out room, rock climbing, mini golf, basketball, fine dining every night, shows shows shows, casino, club, shopping, ice skating, ummmmm oh all you can eat buffet anytime... I mean this ship was wild. Everyday I would wake up and say, whats the adventure today? and sure enough it was followed with much activity and even personal growth (I can't get enough). The amazing group of friends that surrounded me everyday couldn't of been better. Such vibrant souls and true companions. How did I get so lucky? and all this because a dream I had. One of those dreams that scream "this is not your average dream!!" so I followed up on it and now life is richer and more beautiful than I could ever imagine.

  One of the many moments that stick out for me was the feeling of oneness on that boat. Everyone including staff was from another place, even country, and we all are on a ship together in awe of the ability of its massiveness to move. People said hello as you passed by them, with a warm smile even. Conversation would strike up at the drop of a hat with the stranger next to you. No matter what your age or race people seemed to be more open and warm. Is it due to the "we on vacation" vibe lets be nice?  or maybe because everyone was well rested? and why isn't my everyday back home like this? Is it that hard to find commonality between people? I dont think so we just forget to try.  I forget to try, I know the little effort it takes to have great results. Kindness, such an amazing virtue. So imma give it a better chance, try and see what happens. I know with all my heart we are one, but its even greater to see it...
TE

Died and went to heaven in a dress

So I'm not much of a dress wearing kinda girl... don't get me wrong I love girly goodies, pink and purples, lacy and black, anything shiny or glittery and def a sucker for some animal print. But too much ruffle duffle and flower power isn't for me. Rarely do I find a dress (let alone 4) that grab at my heart strings but here ya go, these got me. Then of course you need jewelry to go with it and this girl was killin it. So I died and went to heaven... a few times.
TE

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Trucks = Joy!!!

I've had this slight obsession for old trucks since I was a little girl. My daddy had an old canary yellow 52 GMC, didn't run much but I would sit in the drivers seat and day dream of the time I would be a grown up. Riding the streets of Oregon (where I'm from) in this truck that told so many stories. It told me I was tough yet sweet, dirty yet classy, dangerous yet protected. I have such a strong connection to my boyish side and my girly girl side that a truck done right will be another huge piece to my picture of life. ( wow almost poetry) Anyhoo trucks rule and so does purple...

TE

Friendship

As time goes by we make new friends, and hopefully (like the song) keep the old... I feel like I am constantly learning how to be a good friend. I'm not the one that calls you everyday (but when I do we pickup right where we left off),  or offers to take care of your dog when you leave town (or cat or kid), but I do know this, I will always give you love, honesty, trustworthiness, loyalty, and show up at the club for your bday party even though I'm already cozy in my bed. Its such a small gesture that can go a long way for someone. How hard is it to take an hour out of my night to show up to an overly crowded overly egoed club to say hello and shake it a bit? Not so bad and knowing that small things make a difference then I'm down to do it (except when the sitter falls through).  A wise old man told me "small things turn into great things". My small thing was turned into a "great" emotion of happiness and value for the other person. Happy birthday Jerry Lorenzo!!! I know friendship has a lot more involved but this was one gem I found...
TE

http://jerrylorenzo.blogspot.com/