Belize!!!!

sooo check this out!! me and my son and another wonderful family are headed to central america in a few weeks!!! i know i know crazy!!! we will be there for  about 6 months serving in whatever way they need us. childrens class, prayer gatherings, building a house, whatever!!! we are all members of the Bahai Faith (www.bahai.org) and get to have this amazing opportunity to go and be apart of another culture for a while. I am beyond joyous, this last year has been full of ups and downs, like life just is, but im looking forward to a new outlook. its a must to get out of LA every 6 months or so, sooooo im gettin out!! stay close for hopefully weekly updates and pics of this new adventure that is ahead.!! until then.. fill your heart with these...
TE

Sweater Dress and me...

So I'm not a big dress wearer, occasionally I do love a good tight show-off-all-the-curves- kinda dress. But lately i've been obsessing(what I always do) over the sweater dress... so many different kinds and colors, some good with a belt and some not. High boots or sneakers, leggings or bare skin.. ahhhhhhhh i love it all!!! and i need some before I go on a cutting spree and attack my 3 sweaters that I own ( California winters) soooooo thoughts are things... here's my thoughts in a picture.

xo

Going Girly

So in all my years of being a girl ( all of my life) I've gone back and forth from tomboy, tough, hard girl to sexy, colorful and even pretty girl. I have a strong pull to both sides of my feminine  nature. But lately I've been searching for that "girly TE" look. What IS IT!?!? Is it lots of colors? layers? lace or silk? high heels or boots? leggings or skinny jeans? Dresses and long skirts? All I know is that I'm being drawn to the softer side of life, the slower more intimate moments that engrave into your heart. My music is going through a major transformation so naturally my appearance does too.  I feel new new  great great things on the way and my openness to try just about anything is rocking right now. If you have a vision for me please share it... here is the beginning of some findings of my vision.
Its the best to be a girl...

Family

So lately that has been the theme in my prayers at night. I have one of the most incredible families ever made. Coming from a family of 6, two older brothers and one younger sister, I feel like my childhood was perfect. There was always more than enough. Love and light surrounded us even till this day. My parents are still married after 40 years and that was from a blind date... Through a brother in and out of rehab and a mother that battles a chronic illness, another brother married right out of high school and a beautiful sister who found her light by diving into the darkness... i'd say we are amazing. And really prayer and the Bahai Faith is what we had to navigate through this life. What else could of assisted us in learning how to have consultation? how to pray for each other? how to guard against the trials of this world? To this day I am a whole hearted believer in this Faith and I strongly encourage you to find the truth for yourself. www.bahai.org
My dream, hope, wish and innermost desire is to have a family one day like the one I know. This crazy life and this crazy music business will only consume a tiny part of me from now on. The things that are most important and of the highest station, is family.
I LOVE MY LIFE!!!

TE

its coming...

hmmmmm Heart strings... they have been pushed and pulled at this month. I dont know if its because its my birthday (again) or if the moon is sending some crazy"your gonna feel every little thing down to your core" energy beams out. At any rate I know that there is always room for growth and awareness.  I can only learn through experiences and through taking myself into account each day.  At some point in life you start to ask the friends around you for reality, and hopefully they can mirror your true self. But when that is not enough, I go to nature. Something magical happens there, my thoughts are clear and organized. My shoulders relax and I become instantly connected to God. Suddenly the stack of bills on the kitchen counter(why are they always in the kitchen??) aren't so urgent. The constant runnin around for something that is meaningful is all around you, bathing you in its gifts and glory. I've been craving nature for some time now, it's coming and when its here I will be renewed.

Remembering is so sweet...

The past several years have been full of adventure and growth. So much has happened in my life that could of broken me, but I didn't let it. So much that could of distracted me from my purpose, but I didn't let it in. Such amazing miracles and an abundance of love have showered upon me, I'm so grateful this day. Grateful for my health, the roof over me and my son's heads, the food in our kitchen, my plants that are green and growing, my car that gets me where I need to be, the handful of friends that understand me and SEE me, this amazing weather that nurtures my happiness, the little things in life that make me laugh out loud, and the incredible power and strength that God has in my every breath.
This town will chew you up and spit you out and most people never recover from it. I've seen it time and time again, even had a few good chewing ups myself. But when I was cast out all tattered and worn I picked myself up, dusted off and tried again. Hopefully not getting chewed up the same way as before. I pray everyday for strength and courage to swim up stream, be who I am no matter what the environment, irrepressible. (my fav word) Its all about remembering who you are, why you were made by God and what is your divine blueprint. Remembering your fav color and food, or clothes, what you like to read or where you like to sit in a park, what speaks to your soul and how loud it is, what your drawn to, what your good at. I've always known that music and my songs are a medicine for some, and really for myself. Whatever I was doing before had ran its course, the slate has been cleaned off and I have gone back to what I KNOW. Remembering what I do and who I am deep down and bringing it to the surface. Its an amazing feeling, to remember. With all that, I was listening to a record I did a few years ago, and
fell in love with myself all over again... I'm picking up from there, so stay tuned for the new goodies, and until then check it out http://music.taraellismusic.com/album/proper-lady


I LOVE MY LIFE!!!
TE

Dreams are real

The other night I had a very powerful dream. It was full of information and symbolism. My father came to me and showed me two mountain tops, it was pitch black and all I could see where the stars. He pointed to the first mountain top to our right, there was a white owl and another kind of white furry animal. Then he pointed to the mountain top to our left, there was a bald eagle, a buffalo and a native american man dancing around. It was so incredible that I quickly ran to a place where I could write it all down because I knew I was dreaming and I knew I had to remember all of these signs. Anyway when I woke up I wrote about it some more and looked up some of the meanings on dreammoods.com one of my fav sights for dream interpretation. Thankful today for my insight through the dream world...

TE 

just inspired, this first one is tattooed on my left arm...